September 1971

04. September 1971 – Auroville

But take this other example: I am trying to make Auroville a link between the old way of being and the new, but they are all sunk in…. I mean they use their freedom to live in the most ordinary way. So… it’s discouraging. There are some — a few — who are good, but the majority is a sub-humanity, an altogether animal humanity. So…

4. September 1971 – Living in the Consciousness

To be at every moment as expressive of the Divine Consciousness as one can be. That’s the only important thing.

This body is trying its best to exist only in the Divine. If it could no longer feel separate from the whole (Mother touches the separative skin of her hands), it would be perfectly happy.

People aren’t ready! Every day I discover… Those who are left to their freedom are worthless. They have the most vulgar consciousness, it’s dreadful — no aspiration, no need for perfection, nothing at all.

As for me I… this body does what it can. It can’t do much. It tries… it tries not to create any resistance. From time to time — from time to time — there’s something, a marvel, which lasts for a few seconds. But it’s… (Mother nods her head). Either we have to manage to make this body more plastic so it can be transformed, or else it will be for another life.

Although I must say that… Sri Aurobindo said to me, “Oh, to have to begin all that over again, the whole childhood and all that unconsciousness — no.” Before he left, he said no. “No, I shall return when it can be done in a supramental body.”

But there have to be bodies capable of lasting at will. He said, “The intermediate stage will be duration of life at will.” And I have the feeling that that is possible. Provided… the body itself thinks only of one thing — transformation. When it is like this [quiet, concentrated], then…. I can spend hours — hours without moving — in a kind of receptive contemplation, and it seems like a second. The sense of time is really curious. You see, there is a certain receptive contemplation, and there (gesture of being suspended in a smile)… time simply ceases to exist.

I sense…. I sense I am on the threshold of a great Secret… but (Mother nods her head)… not mental — not in thoughts. It’s… “something.”

08. September 1971 – Immortality

It’s really a period of transition for the body.

The body is realizing, becoming conscious of what in it prevents it from being immortal, and at the same time of what can be immortal in it. It has had moments of agony as never before in its whole life — in connection with death, which has never happened before. And it has understood that its very constitution was causing this, and what it had to change. I am… as though on the threshold of an extraordinary discovery, but…

(silence)

I could put it this way: the why of death has become clear, and the how of immortality is… (silence)… You know, it’s a curious thing, the feeling that there is something (Mother feels with her fingertips) TO TOUCH.

I have the most peculiar feeling that there’s a kind of… like scales, or tree bark, or turtle shell, melting, while the body itself is not like that (Mother makes a gesture as if the body were swelling up and bursting in the sun). What seems like matter to man is… unreceptive. And in this body (Mother touches the skin of her hands), it is trying… it is trying to… (same gesture of swelling or blossoming). It’s really curious! It’s a curious sensation.

If one could last long enough for all that to melt away, then it would be the real beginning.

15. September 1971 – Psychic Being

The Psychic Being can come back, but there must be a conversion.

There must be a conversion.

That the psychic came to you is a very good sign — it’s a very good sign, even for him. Because ordinarily, when the psychic being goes away like that, it goes back to the psychic world and rests until the next life.

But he has remained conscious and came to you. That’s exceptional.

18. September 1971 – Overwhelming Power

There is a sort of promise of an overwhelming Power, and at the same time signs of such weakness — not weakness: disorganization. Disorganization, and at the same time the sense of an overwhelming Power. So the two are like this (gesture of being in a precarious balance). It’s a disorganization in the sense that if I don’t pay attention, I can’t eat, for instance. I have to pay attention, I have to be concentrated all the time, concentrated in order to do things. Sometimes, not a word in my head, nothing; sometimes I see and know what is happening everywhere.

It’s like this (same gesture as on a ridge).

I have to be careful when I am with people, otherwise they would think I am going crazy! (laughter)

It’s really peculiar. A sort of total impotence and an overwhelming power side by side. And the results of the overwhelming power are sometimes visible in people here and there: all of a sudden, miraculous things happen. But at the same time… sometimes I can’t even eat. It’s strange.

22. September 1971 – White Peacock

That must be the supramental victory. A white peacock is the integral victory; a golden tail is the supramental realization… Did you see that?

29. September 1971 – Victory

It was clear, very clear today, a sort of Pressure to say: Victory is Harmony; Victory is the Divine; and for the body, Victory is good health. Any, any discomfort, any disease is a falsehood. It came this morning. It was very CLEAR. It was convincing, you know.

So it’s all right.

It’s as if, through the Pressure, all the Falsehood had been brought out (gesture surging up from below). The most unexpected things. In people, things, circumstances. It’s really… No imagination can equal it. It’s incredible.