May 1972

04. May 1972 – The Golden Force

Since last night, a strange impression that the Divine has become… (how to formulate it?) like a golden Force pressing down like this (gesture of pressure on the earth). They alone, who by their aspiration are able to pass through to the Divine Origin, will escape catastrophes.

Only those who have an aspiration, a sincere and unconditional aspiration towards the Divine, only they will escape — they will stand in a golden glory.

06. May 1972 – The Golden Force

I think I already told you, there’s a kind of golden Force pressing down (gesture); it has no material substantiality, and yet it feels terribly heavy…

…it presses down on Matter, to force it, to compel it to turn INWARDLY to the Divine — not an external flight (pointing above) but inwardly turning to the Divine. And the apparent outcome seems to be inevitable catastrophes. But along with this sense of inevitable catastrophe, there come solutions to situations or events that look simply miraculous.

As if both extremes were becoming more extreme: the good getting better and the bad worse. Like that. And a stupendous Power PRESSING down on the world. Such is my impression.

Yes, it’s as tangible as this (Mother feels the air between her fingers). And even in life circumstances, many things otherwise indifferent are becoming suddenly acute — acute situations, acute differences, acute ill wills — and at the same time, singular miracles. Singular. People on the verge of death are saved, inextricable situations are suddenly untangled.

And the same for individuals too.

Those who know how to turn to… (how shall I put it?) who SINCERELY call upon the Divine, who feel it’s the only salvation, the only way out, and who sincerely offer themselves, then… (gesture of bursting open) within a few minutes, it becomes a wonder — for the least little thing: there’s no big or small, important or unimportant, it’s all the same.

The whole scale of values changes.

The vision of the world is as though changed.

This gives an idea of the change brought about in the world by the supramental Descent. Things that were insignificant are becoming quite categorical: a small mistake becomes categorical in its consequences while a little sincerity, a true little aspiration becomes miraculous in its results. The values are intensified in people. Even materially, the least little error has huge consequences, while the slightest sincerity of aspiration has extraordinary results.

The values are intensified, they stand out more.

The overall perception is that everything is… everything is meant to lead to the conscious ascent of the world. It is consciousness evolving towards divinity. And perfectly true at that: what we perceive as mistakes stems entirely from an ordinary human conception — wholly and entirely.

Really, it’s very simple: the whole creation must want nothing but the Divine, want nothing but to manifest the Divine; all its actions (including its so-called mistakes) are a means to make it inevitable for the whole creation to manifest the Divine — but not a “Divine” as man usually conceives of, with all kinds of limitations and restrictions: a TOTALITY of tremendous power and light.

Truly the Power is IN the world, a new and stupendous Power which has come into the world to manifest the divine Almightiness and make it “manifestable,” so to say.

Through careful observation and attention, I have come to this conclusion: I have seen that what we call the “Supramental,” for lack of a better word, is actually making the creation more susceptible to the higher Power, which we call “divine” because we… (it is divine compared to what we are, but…). It’s something (gesture of descent and pressure) that will make Matter more receptive and more… responsive to the Force. How can I explain it?… At present, whatever is invisible or imperceptible is unreal to us (I mean to human beings in general); we say that some things are “concrete” and others are not. But this Power, this Might, which is NOT MATERIAL, is becoming more concretely effective on earth than earthly material things. That’s it.

And that is how the supramental beings will protect and defend themselves. In its appearance it won’t be material but its power OVER MATTER will be greater than material things. Day by day, hour by hour this is getting truer and truer. The feeling that when this Force is guided by what we call the “Divine,” it CAN DO, it really can do things, it has the power to move Matter, you understand; it can cause a MATERIAL accident, or avoid a wholly wholly material accident, it can cancel the consequences of an absolutely material event — it is stronger than Matter. This is the totally new and incomprehensible fact. But it… (fluttering gesture in the atmosphere), it creates a sort of panic in the ordinary human consciousness.

That’s it. It seems that… things are no longer what they were. There’s really something new — things are NO LONGER what they were.

All our common sense, our human logic, our practical sense — collapsed, finished! No longer effective. No longer realistic. They are no longer relevant.

A new world, really.

And in the body, whatever has trouble adjusting to this new Power creates difficulties, disorders and illnesses. Yet in a flash you sense that if you were totally receptive, you would become formidable. That’s the sensation. That’s more and more my sensation: that if the entire consciousness, the entire most material consciousness — the most material — was receptive to this new Power… one would become formidable.

But there is one essential condition: the ego’s reign must come to an end. The ego is now the obstacle. The ego must be replaced by the divine consciousness — what personally I call divine consciousness. Sri Aurobindo called it “supramental,” so we can call it supramental to avoid confusion, because as soon as you say “Divine,” people start thinking of a “God,” and that spoils everything. It isn’t like that. Not like that, it is the descent of the supramental world (Mother slowly lowers her fists), which is not mere imagination (pointing above): it is an ABSOLUTELY material Power. But (smilingly) with no need for any material means.

A world is trying to be born into this world.

On several occasions, my body felt a sort of new discomfort, an anxiety; and something, not exactly a voice but it became words in my consciousness, said, “Why are you afraid? This is the new consciousness.” It happened several times. Then I understood.

You see, what in terms of human common sense says, “This is impossible, it’s never been before,” that’s what is finished. This idiocy is over. It’s become a stupidity. Now we could say: it’s possible BECAUSE it has never been before. This is the new world and this is the new consciousness and this is the new Power; it is possible, and it is, and will be more and more manifest BECAUSE it is the new world, because it has never been before.

It will be because it has never been before.

It’s lovely: it will be because it has never been before — BECAUSE it has never been.

Whatever isn’t receptive feels crushed, but all that is receptive on the contrary feels a sort of… extraordinary expansion.

Yes. But that’s what’s so odd, there’s both!

Yes, but what feels crushed is what resists, what is unreceptive. One has only to open oneself. Then it becomes like a… a formidable thing. Fabulous! It’s our centuries-old habits that resist and give us that feeling, you know, but whatever can open up… You feel as if you were becoming larger and larger and larger… Magnificent. Oh, that’s it!…

13. May 1972 – Feeling of Nothingness

But how to put it into words?… There are also things that were miraculous in the past and will no longer be so — both possibilities. Both are there together.

I don’t know if it’s just because of this transition period, or if the Supramental will in fact bring about very categorical results…

The same for the body: the least thing seems to produce consequences completely out of proportion — in either good or bad. The customary “neutrality” of life is disappearing.

For the individual being [Mother], it’s peculiar how both extremes coexist: the individual feels like a complete cipher… a thing with no strength, no force, no power of decision of any kind, but at the same time (Mother slowly lowers her fist), through that individuality such a tremendous Action is taking place! And totally unexpected, you know. Both collective and individual actions, which seem absolutely miraculous because they are like this (same gesture) — all-powerful. And the two extremes are there AT THE SAME TIME.

I’ve never had such a feeling of… nothingness — nothingness. Nothing. I am nothing anymore. But at the same time, there’s the vision, the perception of an absolutely irresistible Force (Mother lowers her fist). It’s as if the individual had to be nonexistent first in order to become a real instrument.

Yes, void. Complete void. But then, at the same time (almost the same time, sometimes even exactly at the same time), you perceive a Power acting so formidably through that void! And on a collective scale, you know: winning victories, destroying certain things — fabulous! Fabulous.

And the same for the body. It’s as if every minute the body could die, and every minute it’s miraculously saved. It is… incredible. Incredible.

And with a constant perception of world events, as if everything, but everything were (Mother intertwines the fingers of her hands)… as if interlinked — a link… One could say: one single Will manifesting in innumerable actions.

17. May 1972 – Transition isn‘t pleasant

It’s strange, luckily — luckily — one thing happens after another, one after another, but every single bodily function is changing… (what’s the right word?), I have it, “changing government.” Functions that worked naturally — that is, in accord with the laws of Nature — all of a sudden, brrm, finished! They stop. Then… something… which I call the Divine — perhaps Sri Aurobindo called it the Supramental, I don’t know; it’s something like that, something that is plainly concerned with Matter, with this Manifestation, and which is tomorrow’s realization (I don’t know how to name it); so when everything is thoroughly upset and I feel really awful, then “That” consents to intervene.

The transition isn’t pleasant. That’s all.

Along with sharp pains, and… impossible to take any food, etc. etc.

Evidently someone had to do it. When Sri Aurobindo left, he told me that I alone could do it. I said all right… So, I don’t do it out of ambition — I just accepted, that’s all.

Probably it’s due to the stupidity of my body that I suffer the way I do. If it were more receptive and more… (Mother opens her hands), yes, more receptive, there would be less friction. I can see, I see clearly that pain, conflict, incapacity are all a product of our own stupidity. There’s no doubt about it. We have only ourselves to blame. At any moment — ANY moment and in whatever circumstances — whenever we take the right attitude, that is, when we are like this (Mother opens her hands): let Your Will be done — honestly, sincerely, integrally — everything is fine.

Therefore it’s entirely our fault, we can only blame ourselves. We can only blame ourselves. We complain out of stupidity — oh, personally I don’t complain but… all of a sudden, I can’t do anything anymore.

It means that instead of receiving directly, you see, without thinking, thoughts come in and unsettle — they limit the receptivity and disturb. That’s the point. I see it in myself, you know; I’ve had to struggle so hard with this, in order to… The need to understand things, the need to find explanations is simply a return to the old habitual movements. We must consent to be imbecile — for as long as necessary. Personally, as soon as I consent to be imbecile… beatitude. But the old habits return.

For man, the foremost realization for man is understanding — understanding things. For the Supermind, realization means Power (Mother stretches out her arms in a sovereign gesture), the creative willpower.

But naturally, it would be quite disastrous if human intellectual capacities, mental capacities, were to gain control of that power — it would be terrifying! It would cause terrible havoc. Hence the need to consent in all humility to become imbecile before being able to acquire it.

But I must tell you that you (Satprem) were all the time in my consciousness — and there are only very few (Mother counts on her fingers), perhaps two or three. Otherwise, ohh, they are far, far away… You were continually present, that’s why I was hoping you would feel a change. You were all the time in my consciousness.

When you become simple, you know, like a child… all goes well.

But you mustn’t be afraid. Neither afraid of falling ill, nor of becoming imbecile, nor even… of dying — you must be like this (vast and quiet gesture, like the sea).

If we could only have (I have it from time to time, it comes: it’s on its way) a feeling of smiling trust. But to get that the consciousness must be as vast as the creation itself. You are as vast as the creation, and totally trusting… Ultimately, it always boils down to this (which can be put in a very childlike manner): He knows better than we what has to be done.

He knows better than we what has to be done.

That’s my own method. I find it the easiest; there may be other methods (I am sure there are), but for me it’s the easiest. Whenever something is apprehensive or balks: “He knows better than you what’s necessary.” That’s all.

As much as possible, as much as it can, the body tries to be nonexistent: just letting That pass through, That pass through all the time, like this (gesture with her hands). Let the body be only a point of concentration and diffusion, like this (gesture of something flowing through Mother). As supple, as impersonal, as… (how to term it?) without any personal will. Without any personal will, just like that, like a transmitter: let That pass through — untainted.

19. May 1972 – A New Ashram

The Ashram no longer belongs to me.

Oh, that ceased being true a long time ago. Ever since I stopped going out, people have been thinking that Mother is no longer looking after things, she doesn’t know what’s going on… We ought to start a new Ashram with perhaps a nucleus of ten people — and even then.

24. May 1972 – Clinging to the Mother is clinging to the Divine

You are… (Mother holds Satprem’s hands). I don’t know if you are aware of it, but you are associated in all this work of transformation, like this (gesture of being carried along in the wake)… as if you were fastened to it.

But the work is taking place in a region beyond words.

Ahh!… As for me, I always feel you’re there, as though you were clinging to me, so each time something is accomplished, it is naturally passed on to you.

(Laughing) Clinging like a child.

All depends ABSOLUTELY — absolutely and uniquely — on the divine Will. If He has decided we will be transformed, we will be transformed. I can do nothing — there is no “I,” it doesn’t exist as this! (indicating her body) For those who cling to me, it’s the same as clinging to the Divine, because… (Mother smiles exquisitely). Ultimately, what happens is His will.

26. May 1972 – Message

“Each cellular nucleus holds in its chromosomes the plan of the entire organism… The chromosomic apparatus of any one cell represents both the ‘totality’ of the individual and the ‘local’ organ it belongs to. This organization could best be compared to that of an ideal human community in which each member would be conscious of the whole community and at the same time of his own intelligent personal function within the community.” (Werner Schupbach)

27. May 1972 – Physical World is changing

There’s a concrete proof (not always convenient) that supramental time is not the same as physical time… Sometimes, a few seconds seem, oh, endless, while at other times several hours go by in an instant. And concretely so. The result: I am late, I am always late.

The consciousness is really changing — not the deeper consciousness (which is becoming clearer and clearer), but the consciousness we might call “practical” is in the process of changing in quite a striking way.

I’ll be eating, and suddenly everything present vanishes, and long afterwards, I realize I am like this (gesture, one hand suspended in midair), with a spoon in my hand!… Not very practical! (Laughter)

Oh, it’s quite interesting! But I don’t “go off,” you see… I am not at all in a trance, not at all: I am wide awake and FULLY active. I see things, I do things, I hear people, I… the whole time. But I forget — I simply forget about material life. Then someone comes and abruptly calls me back.

I don’t go out of material life, but… it appears different.

I really think the physical world is changing. People will probably notice it only in a few hundred years, because it takes a long time for it to become visible to the ordinary consciousness. But the touch (Mother feels the air between her fingers), feels… as if a different texture.

From time to time, something tells me, “Don’t talk, don’t talk!” I have to keep quiet otherwise people around me would think I am becoming deranged.

You see, I have at the same time (to speak in the old way), at the same time the CONCRETE experience of a tremendous Power and of total impotence.

The old methods, the methods that even yesterday were effective and powerful, all seem nonexistent. Yet, side by side, when that Force comes, I concretely feel (and I have proof, a factual proof) that a simple expression of will, or even a simple vision of something is… (Mother lowers her hands) all-powerful. Materially so. Some people on their deathbeds are returned to life; some healthy people, brrt, suddenly pass away — to that extent, you know. Circumstances that seemed inextricable find marvelous solutions — people themselves say it’s miraculous. It’s not miraculous to me, it’s very simple: just like this (Mother lowers a finger). But it’s INDISPUTABLE. Indisputable and new in the world. No longer the old method, no longer a mental concentration or a mental vision, none of that (Mother lowers a finger): a fact.

I am myself still too much tied to… [people’s thoughts]. Thank God (Mother sweeps her hand across her forehead), the mind is gone! Ah, you know, I am… what an extraordinary blessing it is! But from the ordinary external standpoint, I seem to have become an utter imbecile.

It’s good that I have someone like you (Satprem) near me who knows there’s something else [than what they think].

And I feel such a force, you know… When I rest, I don’t sleep, I consciously enter that supramental activity, and… Oh!… I see myself doing things with such a fabulous power! And there’s no longer any… you see, when I speak, I am forced to use “I,” but it corresponds to nothing, it’s… it’s the Consciousness, it’s a consciousness. A consciousness that knows and has power. Yes, a CONSCIOUSNESS; not a person but a consciousness — a consciousness that knows and acts. And which uses this (Mother points to her body) to keep a contact with people.

Yes, that’s it, it’s not a person anymore — sometimes, you know (laughing), I feel like a puppet (gesture of dangling at the end of a string) whose purpose is to enable contact with people. But the physical strength is like this (wobbly gesture)… I feel very strong — very strong, and almost nonexistent. Both extremes together, you understand… I must really look stupid.

But there (Mother stretches her arms upwards, then slowly extends them as if to embrace the universe), it’s luminous, it’s clear, it’s strong, it’s wide… Physically, too. It is PHYSICAL, that’s what is amazing! Before, I used to withdraw into an inner state of being (I know them all, I’ve experienced them, I’ve had a conscious life), but all that, all that is… finished. Completely finished… (Smiling) As if the physical world were becoming double.

Naturally, to the ordinary eye, I am still an old woman sitting in a chair and unable to move freely. Although at times, I suddenly feel that if I stood up, I could walk perfectly well… But something tells me, “Patience, patience, patience…” So I wait.

And there’s a persistent idea (hammering gesture) that if I can reach, if my body can reach one hundred, it will become young again. It’s very persistent, but doesn’t come from me, it’s like this (hammering gesture from above), so that I remain patient (although I am not impatient). Patience.

From now to one hundred is six years?

But the body’s capacities will change BEFORE its appearance changes — the appearance changes LAST; and I don’t know, that never enters the picture. What really matters is how the Consciousness can use this. It’s not that I will become young again, it’s not “young,” it’s another type of capacity that will emerge and use this body. Will it transform it? Or will it use it for another purpose? That I don’t know… I don’t know. Strangely enough, only when you are here do I speak or think about these things, as if it were necessary for someone to know — otherwise, I never think about these things (gesture of hands open).

Sometimes I spend hours in contemplation doing a very, very active work. Sometimes there are a few minutes… a few minutes of silence and contemplation… that last hours. And they seem like a few minutes. That’s how it is.

31. May 1972 – All Appearances are Illusions

Oh, listen, it sounds utterly absurd, but I’ll tell you. This consciousness here is as though conscious of the divine decisions; as though there isn’t a single trifle that can’t be an occasion to leave the body if the Divine decides that the body has to go, nor is there a single moment when one can’t have the feeling of immortality if the Divine decides that one should have the feeling of immortality. The SAME thing. Do you understand what I am saying? The SAME thing.

ALL appearances are illusions — there’s something… something which for me is becoming increasingly concrete and tremendously powerful: the Lord’s Will. This conscious will is not like ours, it’s something like this (Mother lowers her outstretched arms). Inexpressible. It’s unlike anything we know. And it is a formidable will — formidable, you understand, in the sense that all appearances, all contradictions, all human wills are zero: THAT alone (same, powerful gesture of lowering both arms). That’s it, THAT is what I feel going through me, as if I bathed in it. Exactly like that.

There isn’t any… there’s nothing here (Mother touches her forehead), it’s empty, empty, completely empty — hollow. Hollow. I don’t think. There isn’t any “I,” or any… It’s almost like an empty shell, yet with that formidable Force… (vast, powerful gesture, arms outstretched).

The supramental consciousness must be trying to take possession of it… This [the body] is just like a shell.

A shell… Will it be able to change? I don’t know.

As if a superhuman Power were trying to manifest through millenniums of impotence… That’s it. This [the body] is made of millenniums of impotence.

And a superhuman Power is trying to… is exerting a pressure to manifest.

That’s what it is. What will be the outcome? I don’t know.

And the same goes for everything — everything, absolutely everything.

There are MOMENTS when things are decided.

Time does not exist anymore…

(Mother nods her head)

As if another time had entered this one.