June 1969

04. June 1969 – The Consciousness started observing

After you left [last time], I looked a good deal, the whole day long... There is the sense that it [the glorified body] would be a wonderful solution. When you said it, something all of a sudden became concrete. But with no personal sense in it... The body doesn’t in the least, in the least, have either the ambition or the desire or even the aspiration to become that [the glorified body], but there was only a sort of joy at the possibility that “that” may be – that THAT MAY BE – with anyone, anywhere, anyhow: that that may be. And I looked very, very attentively: not for a minute did it have the idea, “It should be this” (Mother pinches the skin of her hand), you understand? It was, “May that incarnation, that manifestation BE” – not with the choice of one person or another, one place or another, no, none of that was there: it was the THING IN ITSELF which was a wonderful solution. And that’s all.

Then the consciousness started observing: if there is nothing in this body even “aspiring” to be that, it shows that’s not its work. Then came this extraordinary Smile (I don’t know how to explain), like that, which passed by and said... (to put it in a quite childish manner), “That’s not your business!” And that’s all. And it was over, I didn’t concern myself with it anymore. “Not your business,” in the sense, “It’s none of your concern; whether it’s like this or like that, it’s not your business.” That’s all.

But what has become its business, in such an intense, intense manner that it’s almost inexpressible, is “You, You, You, You that no word can express: the Divine, to use a word. That’s all. For everything: eating – the Divine; sleeping – the Divine; suffering – the Divine... like this (Mother turns her two hands upward). With a sort of steadiness, of stillness – there is a great unification in the cells.

(silence)

This Consciousness... for instance if someone writes and puts a question to me, through this Consciousness I instantly get the answer; and when I write it down, it’s this Consciousness that speaks. These last few days I have written a number of answers, and all of them so far AHEAD of all that has been said up till now... The answers are so far ahead of the state of consciousness of the people who put a question that... And that happens spontaneously, effortlessly, just like that (Mother lets her pen flow).

(silence)

Its sense of an individual, that is, separate existence would appear to be closely, indissolubly linked to suffering (I am talking about physical suffering, nothing moral – physical suffering). So then, if the body has one aspiration, that is to melt... to melt not into the whole, but to melt into... into the something we call the Divine, and which is everything – the true whole instead of the false whole. But I can’t explain.

The body clearly mustn’t be preoccupied with anything; it mustn’t be preoccupied with anything, neither this way nor that, neither with progress nor with dissolution – not preoccupied with anything. The state (not the state it aspires to, it’s not that, because it doesn’t have any “aspiration”), the state that seems to be... willed for it (I don’t know how to explain) is – peace, a receptive peace, that’s all.

25. June 1969 – Message

In the world, people generally classify themselves as materialists who believe in nothing but matter, or as spiritualists who reject matter in order to lean on the spirit alone.

Sri Aurobindo is neither a materialist nor a spiritualist. He admits both, but wants a matter transformed, divinized by the spirit, capable of expressing the truth instead of constantly denying it.

25. June 1969 – Life or Death

Working at a hastened pace. The body... doesn’t complain. It doesn’t complain because... There are two things at the same time. It has increasingly and in an increasingly precise way the full perception of its... to use the exact word, its nothingness (that goes without saying, and without even a shadow of regret, because there’s the full awareness that it can’t be otherwise; in the present state of matter, it can’t be otherwise).... There’s an interesting process of development through which the body sees IN DETAIL – in detail, in every detail – how the Force of Consciousness acts, and what... to put things simply, what we turn it into. It’s very interesting. For everything, you know, the details of every minute: how the Force of Consciousness acts, and... what we turn it into. With, from time to time, a marvelous key for certain problems, and a chance given to apply the key to see how it works – it works admirably!

But all that... you understand, it’s like a few drops in an ocean of work. That’s how it is. The work is terrestrial, of course more and more terrestrial, even the body has a connection with the whole – and therefore rather tremendous. But the sense of limitlessness in regard to the Force (not only the Consciousness, but the Force), the sense of limitlessness is becoming more and more permanent. The scale of the work in proportion with the form [Mother’s body] is very perceptible, and perceptible in a very keen way, but there is the sense of the inanity of this form – not even its relative character: almost its inexistence, something like the sense of... a continuing illusion. And then, quite concretely, the wonderful all powerfulness of the Consciousness-Force; that comes with the impression that so-called “miracles” are nothing at all, a natural working. But you understand, the work has the proportion of the Consciousness, and it has to be done on... (laughing) on the scale of the body. So that gives a sort of perception of an immensity that has to worked out on one point.... I can’t express it, it’s something inexpressible with words.... But I need to have some peace.

And above all, above all, the chatter of words... For instance, it has become very hard for me to read a letter: there are always at least a hundred times too many words. And it’s easy to see it’s in the head that it goes like this (gesture of a jumble). But then, here (gesture to the forehead), it has remained marvelously tranquil and calm and white and... oh, that’s really a Grace. It has remained like that. So all those things that come and try to enter – there’s no response, they are kept at a distance. And then, the Solicitude, the Care taken to make the thing as easy as we permit it to be – it’s wonderful! Wonderful... Naturally, from time to time, one is crushed under the weight of stupidity, but behind, there is nevertheless a benevolent Goodness, smiling and so TREMENDOUS that... nothing matters, no worry There. So...

The body has the sensation of hanging between two states: one which people call life, and the other which people call death. The body feels it’s hanging between the two: neither alive nor... (laughing) dead, like that, neither one nor the other. It’s between the two. And that’s very odd. Very odd. There is an impression (not an impression, it’s a perception) that the slightest disorder (gesture of tipping over to the left) would be enough to fling it to the other side, and that this very slight movement “this way” (gesture of tipping over to the right, into “life”) is made impossible by something one doesn’t understand. And it takes very little to...

One just has to keep very still.

That’s the body’s impression: just be very still, always very still, even when things begin to grate with all that comes from outside, all the circumstances – the laggard cells go like this (gesture of grating), ill-adjusted, and one is on the very edge... on the very edge of tipping over: the only thing to do is to stay very still... and then it passes (immense, even gesture)... wonderful! Something like... I don’t know... I don’t know what to call it, it’s wonderful (same immense, perfectly even gesture). And along with that, the constant impression of that Smile, but an all-powerful smile.

And for... for weeks, it acted only on this body, which was in a very concentrated state; since... not long, since yesterday, it has started (gesture of expansion) acting on other people. And then, some entirely unexpected things happen, that is, which were neither planned nor willed nor devised, absolutely nothing: all of a sudden, this Consciousness comes, seizes the person who’s here (gesture like a tornado), then through this body [of Mother] does something, and takes the person away in its whirl. Especially today. Yesterday, it was a sort of Force – active Force – which came into the body, not bothering anymore about all that’s in a bad state. And this morning, I twice saw this occurrence: I saw (when I say “I,” I mean the consciousness there [gesture above the head], which is a Witness quite... like this [immutable gesture], without any reaction, without a shadow of personal will to intervene in the work of this Consciousness; it was simply a spectator), I saw how through this body, the Force came, seized the other person (same gesture of a tornado) and took him away...

That was amusing! They were two difficult cases, two cases in which I really met with a difficulty to be conquered – you could see how it seized the person, oh, like a child playing with a ball. Like that. Extraordinary! Extraordinary. So if “that” comes and settles... I don’t know.

We’ll see.

It looks as if it’s going to become amusing!

(silence)

There is clearly an active Will at work for this body to learn to live in a state in which there is neither life nor death – a state which is something else.

I don’t know. I don’t know what will happen – the body isn’t told what will happen. It’s very easy to understand why, moreover: if the body knew in advance what will happen, it would surely do foolish things instead of being very attentive and... simply like that, not just “listening” (it’s not a question of listening), but attentive to the Impulsion so as to do exactly what it has to do – what’s expected of it, for everything, everything, down to the smallest thing: eating, sleeping, speaking, moving, everything, everything. To be like that all the time, all the time: attentive so as not to do anything but what has to be done.

And (laughing) the body finds it thoroughly funny, absurd, that one could think one is a “person.” It has such a strong sense of fluidity! The sense that whatever isn’t fluid is false. It’s really amusing.

28. June 1969 – The West versus India

The West expresses more than it really knows. India knows more than it really can express.