March 1972

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08. March 1972 – Frightening Pressure

It’s become terrible. Another Auroville child died (a one-and-a-half-year-old baby) because his parents didn’t have the right attitude. He has just died. That’s how it works. It’s getting terrible. Terrible. A kind of Pressure — a frightening Pressure — which compels the necessary progress. I feel it in myself, on my body. But my body isn’t afraid; it says (Mother opens her hands), “Well, if I must be finished, I’ll be finished.”

Well, this is it. Something like: “No half measures, no compromises, no halfways, no…” None — it’s like this (Mother brings down her fist).

And that’s how it is for the body. Every instant is imperative: life or death. No halfways. You know, we have spent centuries being neither too uncomfortable nor too comfortable. Well, that time is over.

The body knows this is necessary for the supramental body to be formed: it must be ENTIRELY under the Influence of the Divine. No compromises, no half measures, no “It will come later.” Just like this (Mother brings down her fist): a dreadful Will.

And that’s the only way for things to go fast.

Because it can’t be stable unless it is POSITIVELY anchored to the Divine. When you are like this (gesture, fists clenched in the air as if clinging to a rope), then, automatically, all the critical moments take the right turn. The right turn. It’s like a constant feeling of hovering between life and death, and the minute you take the right attitude — the minute the PART CONCERNED takes the right attitude — all is well. All is well, quite naturally and easily. Really extraordinary. But it’s also terrible because it means perpetual danger. I don’t know, perhaps a hundred times a day, a sensation like: life or… dissolution (I mean a sensation in the cells). And if they become tense as is their wont, it gets awful. But they’re learning to… (Mother opens her hands in a gesture of surrender). Then things are fine.

It’s as if the body were being practically obliged to learn eternity. It’s truly interesting. And then I see external circumstances becoming DREADFUL (from an ordinary standpoint).

But I have had experiences — hundreds of experiences — showing that the minute you take the true attitude, it is DONE.

It is WE who prevent it from getting done. As though our personal control over things prevented the action of the Force (something of the sort). We must… (Mother opens her hands).

I think it’s the subconscient which is convinced that if it doesn’t keep control, everything will go wrong. That’s the impression I have, it’s the subconscient which says, “Oh, I must watch over this, I must be careful about that…”

10. March 1972 – Unity

You have hit the point: lack of unity is the cause of all the difficulties.

Now even the Ashram has been contaminated by the disease: each department considers itself a separate entity. And since there’s no more cohesion, nothing works! That’s the situation.

In the end it always boils down to the same thing: a SUBSTANTIAL individual progress is required — a serious and sincere progress — then everything works perfectly.

The atmosphere is dislocated; it has lost the cohesive power it had.

But if you want to collaborate, it would be wonderful, you know! I need someone, you see, someone who could get around, talk to people, see, take notes: re-establish unity on a higher level. oh, that would be a wonderful work! Wonderful.

Once that is done, things would ease up. It’s not that money is lacking, it’s just being wasted, scattered.

Success is certain, but on one condition — ONE condition — that we become united. Supposedly, we are preaching unity to the world — it would be only decent to do it ourselves!

Instead, we are the example of exactly the opposite.

To visitors we say, “Here we seek human unity.” But WE constantly quarrel among ourselves, and we preach human unity! That’s absurd. Totally absurd! We can’t even be ONE in our own work.

I keep telling them, but they don’t understand.

I could put it this way: it’s either progress, or death. Each and everyone must, must absolutely progress, make the required progress, or else… (gesture of dissolution).

You see, we preach Unity, we say that humanity must be one, that all efforts must join together for the general progress, for the advent of the Supramental… but everyone pulls as hard as he can in his own direction. That’s the situation.

So I wanted to tell all of you, “Practice what you say, or you will cease to exist.”

One has no right to preach unity to the world when one gives such an example of utter division… That’s all. It’s quite simple, so simple that a child could understand — but THEY don’t understand.

As for me, the power of consciousness goes on increasing; for the time being — I repeat, for the time being — the physical power is reduced to almost nought. I am forced to stay here, minding nothing, and make shift with seeing people. So I need some persons to do the practical work I used to do before and can no longer do… (Mother is short of breath). I can’t speak with the same strength as before — the physical is undergoing a transformation, you know. Sri Aurobindo himself had said — and rightly so — he said (because one of us had to go, and I offered to go), “No, your body is capable of enduring it, it has the strength to undergo transformation.” It’s not easy. I can assure you, it’s not easy. Yet my body is good-willed, it is really good-willed. But for the moment it is in the process of… well, it is no longer quite on this side but not yet on the other. The transition isn’t easy. So I am stuck here, like an old woman, incapable of doing any work.

If I can hold on — if only I can hold on — at one hundred things will be better. That I know. I am absolutely convinced there will be a renewal of energy. But I have to hold on… That’s all.

Then if the work must be done, if Auroville must be built, not only do I have to remain in my body but the body must become strong.

I know. I know that. All depends on what the Divine Will is — He doesn’t tell me! When I ask Him, I have the impression… (once or twice, in moments of difficulty, I have put the question regarding this body), and then (laughing) I seem to see a smile, you know, a smile as big as the world, but no answer.

I can still see that smile: “Don’t try to know, it is not yet time.”

If we knew how to remain always in the true consciousness, there would be… a smile. But we have a tendency to become tragic. It’s our weakness.

It is our limitations that make a drama. We are too small — too small and too shortsighted. But… the Consciousness knows — it knows.

17. March 1972 – Message

To prepare for immortality, the consciousness of the body must first become one with the Eternal Consciousness.

19. March 1972 – Message

The truth, which man has vainly sought to know, will be the privilege of the new race, the race of tomorrow, the superman.

To live according to the Truth will be his privilege.

Let us do our best to help prepare the advent of the New Being. The mind must fall silent and be replaced by the Truth-Consciousness — the consciousness of details integrated with the consciousness of the whole.

22. March 1972 – Widespread Incomprehension in People

At night, I don’t sleep, you know, but I go into a deep rest, and there remains only the body consciousness. Twice, last night, the body saw all sorts of images and activities showing a widespread incomprehension in people.

The body was in certain situations… One was taking place here and the other was in Japan. I realized that the body holds certain impressions, impressions of being in a… It wasn’t in the Ashram, but the one in Japan, exactly as I was in Japan (but these are not memories, they were entirely new activities, something entirely new), showing that I was surrounded by people who don’t understand. And here, too (it wasn’t the Ashram, the situations were symbolic and involved people who are no longer in their bodies), I was surrounded by people and things that didn’t understand. And I saw that these impressions are in the body and make things even more difficult.

They weren’t actually physical things: they were the transcription of people’s attitude and their way of thinking.

I don’t say anything (for it sounds ridiculous), but my feeling is that some people have been using black magic against me. Naturally, my only recourse is to envelop and surround myself with the Divine. But… that causes a lot of difficulties.

24. March 1972 – Complete New Body

For the first time, early this morning, I saw myself: my body. I don’t know whether it’s the supramental body or… (what shall I say?) a transitional body, but I had a completely new body, in the sense that it was sexless: it was neither woman nor man.

It was very white. But that could be because I have white skin, I don’t know.

It was very slender (gesture). Really lovely, a truly harmonious form.

That’s the first time.

I hadn’t the least idea, the faintest notion what it would look like, nothing, and I saw — I WAS like that, I had become like that. I thought Satprem should know, so he can note it down.

Especially for food: it will be very different. I am BEGINNING to understand how it will work, but I don’t know enough yet to describe it — I haven’t had the experience, so I don’t know… Most probably, we will absorb things that don’t need to be digested — there are some. But not food as such. For example, one idea these days is glucose (things of that sort). But I am not sure because I am just undergoing the experience. Once I have the vision of what to do, I’ll do it.